Tonight as I sit down on my cozy bed after having spent minimal time with family and much too much time at work I am worn. I am worn in the struggles I face with my oldest daughter, not because of her, but because parenting a growing child and learning to let go is not always easy. I am worn from not spending time with my youngest daughter, who seems to be growing up so much faster now that I am not spending every day with her. I am worn in not having time with my husband. I am worn from strain at work. I am worn from being financially strained, even though we are sacrificing, working with great diligence, and making wise choices. I am worn from dealing with a very contentious ex-spouse in law who purposes at every turn to keep my step-daughter from her dad and our family. I am worn. And while I don’t recall a time that I questioned God’s presence I have had days in which the hurts and struggles ran so deep that it was hard to face the day ahead………and sometimes I need to be reminded that….
in ALL of that AND MORE, God IS on the throne and HE IS aware.
God is FAITHFUL, He is just and He is involved ~ in fact, God’s Word is very clear about God’s presence in our lives….
Genesis 17:1 God is behind us to back us up
Deuteronomy 13:4 God is in front of us to guide us
Psalm 91:1 God is above us to protect us
Deuteronomy 33:27 God is below us to support us
Genesis 5:24, 6:19; Psalm 16:8; Job 23:9 God is beside us to fellowship with us
Colossians 1:27; Galatians 2:20 God is in me
Psalm 34:7 God is all around us
So while I am worn and even weary, I am also desire to be wrapped in the arms of Christ. Now is when I need to decide who I am going to serve and focus my thoughts and heart on. When I am focused on life’s problems I am weighed down, very weighed down. However, when I purpose to focus on God’s presence in my life I am able to rest in Him. So while I don’t have all of the answers, nor will I ever, I do know that my God is with me at all times and I choose to wearily rest in Him until my burdens are light…not because life became easy, but because He became I deeply long for Him to be my all.